Monday, November 19, 2012

Incorruptible Seed

In the beginning [before all time] was the Word (Christ), and the Word was with God, and the Word was God Himself. He was present originally with God. All things were made and came into existence through Him; and without Him was not even one thing made that has come into being. In Him was Life, and the Life was the Light of men. And the Light shines on in the darkness , for the darkness has never overpowered it [put it out or absorbed it or appropriated it, and is unreceptive to it]. 
John 1:1-5 Amp. 

There are a lot of reasons why I believe that Chris is healed, and we will start to see this more and more in his body. I would like to share with you one of those reasons today. Of course, there are many obvious texts in the Bible on healing, where Jesus Himself healed people, the apostles healed people, and there are many current testimonies in this day of healings happening. What I want to share with you today is a bit different. It is an insight the Father has been speaking to me about, and it has to do with the Beginning. 

We have had many poignant prayer times surrounding this time in our lives. Times of intensity, fervor, passion, shouts for help, tears, quietness, and reflection. One of these times, I was gathered with a few of my girlfriends in our church's prayer room, and I began to sing, almost hum a melody that came deep from my spirit. It was a song I had never sung before, but God was speaking to me. I began to see (in my mind's eye) an image of an ancient garden. A place where ground was being cultivated, rich earth was being tilled, cared for, and being ready to bring forth something new. I saw the Father's hands plant seeds. It was a place of protection, where nothing could harm it, no weeds, disasters, storms, anything that could snatch those seeds. All I felt was a sense of peace, absence of fear, and a great love intertwined. I began singing words as well, yet I don't remember what they were. I know now, that I was seeing the Beginning. The place where Chris was first called into being, dreamed about, talked about, and enjoyed. Where every cell was created, every bone put into place, every sound from his voice. This was his start (our start too). This was the place where it all started….communion with our Creator, a place of harmony, and no separation. 

I have reflected on this often, and I believe the Lord showed me this to show me what truly is…the greatest reality. This is the place that Jesus came to redeem….the plan that God had in mind from the Beginning. It all started in a garden. Since that night, I have been able to have similar times of prayer over Chris, and others have unknowingly prayed similar prayers. If you are considering the story of someone' s life, don't you always start at the Beginning? That is what I have felt the Holy Spirit prompting me to do. Remember the Beginning, remember I have had a plan all along, remember I see and know all the details, and I am working them out for your good. 

As we pray, let us pray from this place of faith. That our Creator is so mind-full of us. That He sees all of our intricate needs and knows how to fix them. That He has had a plan all along, and He wants, more than we do, to see it through. 

I want to leave you with one last illustration. Last Christmas, we gave Sophie her first, own "big-girl" Bible. It is lavender with pink and orange flowers on it, of course. The moment we gave it to her, she began to try and read what it said, reading it as if she knew what it said, and soaking up every page, every word. Sophie is five years old, in kindergarten, and is just now learning how to read. No one told her to love her Bible, she just does. I was having a conversation about this with my mom last night. She said Sophie brought her Bible to church with her yesterday, and they were in the car trying to find some words in it Sophie could actually read. My mom showed her, "God is love." They looked through it together some more, and Sophie said, "this book is very special to me." Why, in particular, is it a special book? It is alive, and it has been with us from the beginning…1 Peter calls it the incorruptible seed. We all have this "seed" inside of us. We have the Word of God and can call it forth anytime. This word has been one of our greatest treasures in this time especially. It is a word that is unshakable…nothing can overpower it…it is living and active…everything else will fade away. This word is active in showing us what is truly true. No matter what tests have been performed, what has been said, or what we have seen with our natural eyes…this Word is what is Real. 

I have to say again to everyone….thank you!!!!!! Thank you for the prayers, cards, meals, hugs, encouragement, financial support, emails, etc. We are so grateful for 
all of you. 

Love, Amy

1 Peter 1:23 KJV "Being born again, not of corruptible seed, but incorruptible, by the Word of God, which liveth and abideth forever."

Saturday, November 10, 2012

His banner over me is Love.

So Amy and I have been walking through a difficult few months that have seemed as years! It seemed for a while we were getting a bad report from some doctor about everyday. Sorting these reports through the lens of heaven became top priority. 

We have realized that what we do with these circumstances in our minds will change everything. Do I know what this healing is going to look like? Do I know how all of this is going to come together? No, I don't.  But I was promised by the Lord, through His word, a perfectly stitched, masterful, life changing journey for myself and loved ones walking through this with me. If you look to the Source, honestly and candidly you will see nothing but the love of a good Father pouring out on you like honey. 

There are obviously different ways a heart can handle this level of adversity, and different negative modes of thinking that can be adopted before you even realize they rang your doorbell. Worry and fear are the two most unwelcome houseguests. Amy and I have gotten better and better at recognizing those suckers at the door, and not letting them join our party. There is no fruit to worry. There is no helpfulness in fear. There is no fear in love. These are only devices that keep you from becoming the full potential of who you were dreamed up to be before the world was made. God IS NOT worried about the cancer cells in my body. He knows me and is a deeply loving Father who is intimately connected to my physical & emotional pain, concerns, frustrations and He is well aware that I really have no idea about any of what's going on. He has walked me through each one of these 'contradictions' with love, grace and compassion. The first question that often bubbles up in my mind when these contradictions happen is, "I thought you were a good God! How could you let this happen!?" It is an honest statement, and a great opener for the Father to start communicating His love and perfect acceptance of me. The more we know who the actual person of God is, who Jesus is, trust floods our hearts and we are able to sleep in the storm. 

Impossible situations need supernatural grace to get through, and I can fully and wholeheartedly testify that Jesus himself and his act of restoring the open relationship between God and man IS ENOUGH. Has my last 2 months been hard? Yes. But I have seen the face of God in work colleagues, dear friends, family and total strangers. This has changed me forever and given me a glimpse into the family of God. 

The truth that I am coming to is that even though the doctors tell me I am dying (you're right, I don't believe them either) I am more alive now than I ever have been. There is a joy and rest that comes from knowing that you will never be left hung out to dry and alone. This is something to feel alive about. 

Everyone's concern, care and generosity has floored myself and my family. Deep thanks for choosing to be on this journey with us. I believe that we all will share in a celebration coming. 


"And He asked them, But who do you yourselves say that I am? Peter replied to Him, You are the Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One). " Mark 8:29 Amplified
"He said to them, But who do you [yourselves] say that I am? Simon Peter replied, You are the Christ, the Son of the Living God. Then Jesus answered him, Blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are you, Simon Bar-Jonah. For flesh and blood [men] have not revealed this to you, but My Father Who is in heaven." Matthew 16:15-18 Amplified
How we ourselves answer this question changes everything...

"There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full-grown (complete, perfect) love turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and [so] he who is afraid has not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love's complete perfection]." 1John 4:18

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control." 
1Timothy 1:7

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Our promise

One of the greatest joys we can share with you right now is the name of our son, who is coming some time late February or early March. There is a bit of a story behind this. Going back 32 years, it started when my mom was pregnant with me... My grandfather was in a meeting at Lamb's Chapel and stood up in front of a group of people to prophesy that my mom (who already had 3 girls) was going to have a boy, and his name would be Benjamin. As you can see, instead, she had a girl named Amy Rebecca. I know my grandfather hears the voice of the Lord, and is not afraid to speak out when he senses God is saying something. I am sure that did a little number on his pride for a moment, but it never stopped him from boldly proclaiming the word of the Lord. We are thankful for that, because it brings us to the name of our son, which will be Benjamin! We have been dreaming of his name since we found out I was pregnant, and even more so since we found out he was a boy. We found several names we really liked, and they just didn't stick. We weren't ready to commit. Until a few weeks ago, the morning that we had gone to the doctor and discovered that Chris' cancer had was that morning that the Lord breathed the name in my heart...Benjamin. We talked about it in between all of the waiting rooms, CT scans, and news from the doctor. When I shared the name with Chris, he reminded me that he had a dream (before we knew I was pregnant) about himself walking with his 3rd child. He was older and looked like my cousin Benjamin. When I asked him about the name Benjamin, he thought about this dream. This is how we both decided that the name will be Benjamin!

We had already decided what the middle name would be...Promise. This too, has a story. Early on in my pregnancy, Chris heard the Lord speak to him, "this baby is a promise." At the time, we thought, that is true, but not knowing the deep significance that those words would carry. Daily, we hold those words in our heart. This baby is a promise. God always provides life, He is a giver of life, dreams, hope, love, healing...the list is endless. His promises and his word is true. So, with that, we give you the name of our son, Benjamin Promise. He is the apple of our eye already, and how much more his heavenly Father's!
We love you all, and continue to be overwhelmed and overjoyed at all of your prayers and support.
With so much love,
Chris and Amy

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Our love letter to you today.

Hello again.  We have a message we wanted to bless you with. We have been given the gift of seeing with clarity the richness of His love towards us. Despite our circumstances, He is nearer to us than we had ever known or imagined. No amount of teaching, reading, study, etc. can ever allow you to see His love that is ever so near and all encompassing. Words simply cannot describe. The good news is that it comes by way of revelation. And He speaks a language that we can understand. We were created by Him and for Him. How much more would he now, want us to grasp His great love for us! This love is not for a select few, but for all of us. No matter where you are today, hear His heart of love for you.
As we walk in this together, we want to bless you with some words from the Father's heart this morning. Friends, especially those who are hurting, weary, jaded, torn, tossed about...hear these words and know of His rich love that He has extended to us all. Not because of what we have done, but because of how He first loved us. This is our prayer for us all.

"My response is to get down on my knees before the Father, this magnificent Father who parcels out all heaven and earth. I ask him to strengthen you by his Spirit--not a brute strength but a glorious inner strength--that Christ will live in you as you open the door and invite him in. And I ask him that with both feet planted firmly on the love, you'll be able to take in with all Christians the extravagant dimensions of Christ's love. Reach out and experience the breadth! Test its length! Plumb the depths! Rise to the heights! Live full lives, full in the fullness of God. God can do anything, you know--far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us."
Ephesians 3:14-20 The Message